It seems as though I am coming out from a fog that settled over my life for the last twelve years. These last few weeks have been interesting as I have shifted from working mother to a stay-at-home mom and full time housewife…or homemaker, if you will. It is amazing how much clearer your thoughts are when you dont have to rush from one thing to another trying to fit everything into one day. I’m starting to notice and enjoy the little things… like putting lotion on my children. Or brushing my sons hair. Or actually setting the table for dinner. I have so much more time with the kids now. I am liking this.

It is weird though… my body seems to be out of sorts with this. My sleep pattern is taking a hit I guess since I am not as exhausted at the end of the day. Also, when I have nothing to do through the day I feel like I need to be out doing something anyway. I haven’t learned the art of just sitting still. Insha Allah my restlessness will calm soon.

It has been a big adjustment. but a good one. Ramadan came and went… and I felt a little apart from it all as I was not fasting so I didn’t benefit from it the way I hoped I would. Loosing the baby was an emotional journey I have never experienced but I come out feeling stronger in my faith that everything happens for a reason and I am content with Allah’s will. I do, however, look forward to another opportunity to bring life into this world, insha Allah.

Hope all is well in your worlds.

Insha Allah everyone had a blessed Ramadan.

Things are settling with me. Will be back soon… I miss writing.

I lost the baby.

I am very confused.

Ramadan is coming and insha Allah my most important dua’s will be answered.

I wont be around for a while.

As Salaamu Alaikum ladies…

Been a minute I know. I took a pause to concentrate on my family and my marriage which insha Allah will prove to be beneficial. It was a nice summer… I spent it getting to know my new daughters and getting accustomed to having such a large family. Masha Allah, Allah has truly blessed us with a beautiful family.

Several things happening… and happening rather quickly. I submitted my two-week resignation to my company Monday. Wow. I have been there for eight long years and have created so many relationships and I cant believe I am finally walking out those doors. It was a great experience and I thank Allah for the many learning experiences I had there. While I look forward to the next chapter in my life which I am sure will be challenging, I will miss my time here and the life I created with my little ones. However, I am looking forward to being able to spend more time with my children, developing myself Islamically and working with the community.

We are moving next week insha Allah to a very beautiful home. I am excited! I will be near you Safa (Sepiatonz) so maybe we can meet up? I am happy and grateful that I will be closer to my father and the rest of my family.

Also… I am expecting my third child Alhumdulillah! It has been 7 years since experiencing the miracle of life growing inside of me. I am beyond elated…and the children are psyched. Make dua for me that I have a healthy pregnancy, a healthy baby and that it is a boy (my poor son is grossly out-numbered, LOL).

Those are my updates… stay tuned for more.

Hold Tight I’m back!